had npcc today.
and guess waddddd
of all things,
i was too engrossed wif preparing my stuff for npcc tt i 4got to bring my pe shirt and shorts along =.=
of all things.. zzz
somemore its in my timetable lehhh
-.-
haizz
den somemore today there was runningggggg
T.T
and i got bitten by mosquitoes while waiting for them to finish the whole run thingy.
bernice was so near to tt wet soil part area and i was like just standing in the middle of nowhere but still i got bitten =.=
suay me =/
played captain ball wif the girls though i was not in my pe attire =x
did some experiment thingy during recess.
the tcm thingy der.
suppose to make a shampoo wif anti-fungal effect using chinese medicine lol.
its funnnn =x
get to play wif the chemicals and blend stuff wahahahaha..
and most of all get to tok to the chiobuuu xDDD
ok i better stop toking abt ms lew or else i cant stop lolz.
man i sound like a les o.o
okok foccuusss..
ahem.
did all those presenting handphone thingy thingy to those officers frm SPF.
well actually onli joseph and ms tay did lol.
me xinyi farhana and janice were bz toking softly at the corner of the classroom since we got nth to do lol.
gossipping here and there xD
den changed into our full-u
went to fall in and got rdy for the errrrrrrr wad do u call it? o.o
rehersal for speech day thingy lol.
everything was so call nice for the whole rehersal but the errr running forward and shouting canberra thingy is(and not was) veri VERI lame =.=
tkj der idea der -.-
he even wanted us to throw our beret into the air after shouting canberra sia -.-
smack him la zz
i no face liao lol.
sad thing is vincent scolded us once again.
well we deserved it =/
but stilll,
frankly speaking vincent hor,
wan scold can scold budden he shld not have used all those insulting words =/
its actually more discouraging -.-
pea-brains.
ya sure since we r little cadets wif pea brains and so we wun be able to perform up to standard.
y shld we even try to do things when we noe tt we wun be able to succeed since we r ppl wif pea brains -.-
we cant think.
wad else do u expect frm us vincent zz.
nvm.
i will just forget abt this thing and concentrate on more important things rather den just get annoyed becoz of this.
anyways,
right after npcc,
farhana, siti,xinyi and me went to the mama shop to just see if there is anything to buy.
once we entered the shop got this boy(ok im feeling soooo..errr heartache?) hu asked if we have $1 to spare.
we were like ermmm we didnt noe wad to do.
coz u noe this boy cld be cheating us and all tt.
he was holding $4 like tt.
when we just looked at each other .
den he asked if we got 50 cents.
after awhile we still looked at each other and he knew we wld not donate so he just left and walk to the playground there.
took this branch thingy and used it to browse around the bushes to see if there were anything around there or somethin.
i duno wad he was looking for la budden he looked as if he was looking for some dropped money o.o
ahhh i feel so heartbroken. this horrible feeling of guilt zzz.
i cld not take it anymore den i took out $1 and decided to pass it to him.
but he was alreadi so far away.
o.o
ok la not so far.
i told xinyi tt i wanted to giv him the $1 den she say go find him lol.
den the rest of the girls followed me den farhana called the boy.
but the boy saw us den ran deeper into the flat o.o
wanted to chase after the boy but for the girls' safetly, i just told them to turn bak.
ltr actually got some guy told the boy to lure us there de den ltr somethin happen den die.
but whether the boy was up to no gd i still feel awfully ermmm guilty?
everytime when this kind of things happen this awful feeling wld reveal itself. =/
until now, while i type in this post, i still feel so freakishly guilty -.-
tts the prob wif me la.
im too..ermm how do i put this o.o
kind-hearted?
ever since young im like tt der.
but now of course i speak more la well ever since i entered canberra ive been toking much more lol.
but still the old me remains inside o.o
ok not old me but tt character of me is inside lolz.
ive been more cautious now coz if it werent for those tooot ppl hu took advantage of my kind acts i wld not have been sooo..selfish(?well somethin like tt =/) now.
maybe God was testing me o.o
well somehow or another maybe He realli was testing me ._.
maybe He wants to awaken this 'old' me.
after the whole incident ive become more errr thrifty =x
and i thank God for that lol.
if it werent for tt incident i tink i wld have been spending my money as if it wld come bak anytime i want it to come =/
oh ya.
and diyanaaaa.
u still owe me somethin lol.
i have not been asking for it becoz i trust tt u wld return it bak to me.
i hope u wld not let me down. =/
anywayyssss,
first thing i reached home i landed on the bed and just closed my eyes for a moment lol.
den used the com and typed in this post.
i shall end here.
ahhh i wonder if i can slp tonite =.=